1. |
I Know This Girl
02:32
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I know this girl who's better than me
she is always doing
so well
She has friends and she goes out a lot
she says shes shy but you
cant tell
I like her hair, it reminds me of me
it is always looking
messy
She wears strange clothes but we like the same bands
we talk about music
solely
I don't know how i can ask her
but i really wish i had something
I would like to know her better
cause i think that she is good for me
But she is too good for me.
Shes a vegan but i mainly eat meat
she is fit and healthy
not me
I get nervous almost all of the time
when i make a phone call
help me
She’s proactive in her approach to life
she is always very
busy
I sit in my room, pretend I’m alright
its not gonna happen
is it?
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2. |
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I have never had it this good and i thought i never would
feel this way where i am smiling every day
i have found a second half of me
and its such a perfect way to be
come with me into my room we'll sit and hide from all the doom and gloom of the modern life we have today
we could lock ourselves away
throw away the key and forever stay
I don't mean to be a cynic but I've never felt this way
and every silver lining has to have a cloud of grey
I don't mean to be a doubter but this is too good to be true
and i could wave the world goodbye if i did so with you
I could stare into your eyes until the sun fell out the sky and
we all burnt or froze and died and got washed away by the tide
the time of my life, I'm having it now
so come with me and sit and stare ill run my fingers through your hair and we will crash out and lay bare and go through life without a care
the time of my life I'm having it now
everything is great, i don't know what to say about it
I'm at a loss for words
and every time you smile. i forget all of my problems
come and stay a while.
don't go
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3. |
Your hair
01:46
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Your hair reminds me of myself
and I'm here after crawling from hell
I'm trying to hold it together
I'm dying to hold you
You are my inspiration
You're all I think about
I'm trying to hold it together
I'm dying to hold you
You complete me in my stride
So come on, come on, I won't lie
They can't find us if we hide
So hide your face and close your eyes
I need you
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4. |
poetry
02:23
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when your busking in the town centre
or talking with your friends
i’ll just sit and think of you
until you’re free again
when you’re traveling the country
you go away for the week
i barely leave my bedroom
and i hardly dare to speak
please don’t get bored of me
cause i’ll love you forever if you let me
please know that i wont give up on you
i’ll love you forever if you want me to
when you’re teaching at your classes
or going out to shows
you seem to see a lot in me
but what, i do not know
when your fans want an encore
and mine do not show up
and i cant really help but to think
that i’m not good enough
love me
never let me go
i’ll be yours forever please don’t leave me on my own
hold me
dont let go of my hand
tell me about poems i dont understand
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5. |
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this song it took me three weeks to write
and I've been sitting on my own all night but that's alright
cause I’m seeing you tomorrow
but time is going so slow
and I'm not what i once was
and I’ve really been through the wars
lately i cant seem to get any thing right
and I’m not sure how I’ve survived
but all my friends are doing just fine
this verse it took me a week to write
and i am feeling quite alright a blight in my own mind
and everything is ok
and i’m seeing you today
and this is happiness
and I'm not used to it
I’ve got so much to lose now
this song it took me too long to write
and I’m gonna find it hard to sleep tonight but never mind
cause you can make me smile
i haven’t done that in a while
so this is happiness
i hope it never ends
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6. |
Quantify
03:56
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if i walked a mile
to see you at night
you’d walk by my side
under the street lights
if we walked till daylight
i could show you how
i see clearly now
all i need is you comforting me comforting me
all i want to feel is you, holding me so tightly
i dont want to waste my breath
trying to explain my love
its something that i always try
but i can never quantify
if we walked till our shoes
were worn to the ground
we’d have to sit down
with arms wrapped around
each other as we watch the drunks of the town
standing in crowds
and speaking in vowels
with you i fill myself with your love and i’m at bursting point asnd it feels so good to know that you feel the same way when you look at me
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7. |
Slow Progress
04:08
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i had no idea that life was this hard
i tried to be fair but it caught me off guard
now i am bruised inside
i don’t know why i ever tried
i said i was struggling but no one believed me
what would i do if this girl ever leaves me
i’d crumble into ash
i can’t live with that
i’ll pick up the pieces and try to improve
can’t take any chances there's too much to lose
and i am trying very hard you know
but it just doesn’t always show
slow progress is progress still i guess
what a mess i’ve made of my life
and i confess i’ve never had it as good as this and i know
this is as good as it gets
i’ve wrote this song now a thousand times
with different words on different lines
its all i really think about
but i still can’t figure it out
you’re all i want you’re all i want to be
but god only knows what you see in me
i’d beg you not to leave
cause you are now a part of me
and i want to change to be better for you
to do myself justice, it’s long overdue
i’m trying very hard you know
but i feel like it never shows
slow progress is progress still i guess
what a mess i’ve made of my life
and i confess i’ve never had it as good as this and i know
this is as good as it gets
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8. |
factory
03:16
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this town is ugly on the surface
but deep inside its still ugly
the people here are rude in purpose
in this little town besides the sea
the people here they make me nervous
and my dad he works in a factory
and we live paycheque to paycheque
eating super noodles to get us through the week
and it don’t matter son that we are poor cause one day we’ll be rich
if i try my best or get lucky it doesn’t matter which
if i graft like mad and get a job that beats the one i have
but id doesn’t work that way does it dad?
and we can’t all have loads of money
thats not the nature of our economy
somebody always has to finish last
and i guess that we’re just unlucky
and this isn’t all about income
i know you’re bitter and lonely
i just don’t want to be what you have become
out there in the factory
and i’m sorry dad but I’m not about give up life
to be paid a fraction of what i’m worth to work all through the night
and i will not stand for those who tell me what i have to do
because i’d do almost anything to not end up like you
and it don’t matter son that we are poor cause one day we’ll be rich
if i try my best or get lucky it doesn’t matter which
if i graft like fuck and get a job that beats the one i have
but it doesn’t work that way does it dad
and you know that
and i don’t know if theres a way out
i could always win the lottery
but i'm stuck here without a doubt
so i’ll just enroll at the factory
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9. |
treat it like a job
02:26
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Treat it like a job if you must and I'll get back to you when I give mine up.
I don't have much to be excited about
There's more bad days than good days
and I'm tired all the time
I'm not alright
and I waste all my time writing songs that no one will ever hear
I guess I should com to terms with the fact that being happy is just a fantasy
I was care free once
or was that just a distorted memory
There's more bad days than good days
and I'm quiet all the time.
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10. |
I don't dance
02:32
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i don’t dance
i don’t sing along to songs
i don't smile nearly enough
i don't dance
i don’t read cause i don’t like books
i don’t sleep nearly enough
i don’t talk when i don’t give a fuck
i don’t want your sympathy but just don’t know whats wrong with me
i’m not good at having fun and i’m tired of being the boring one
i know the score, i think too much and don’t talk enough
i feel awkward when i’m sober
i don’t play because i always lose
i don’t like when i have to choose
i don’t go out at night
and i don’t dance
I don’t smile for photographs.
and I don’t love cause it never lasts
I don’t talk and I never laugh
and I don’t dance
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11. |
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so i sat in my room and wrote up a list of all the things i could do better, it took me a while
and i laughed when everything i loved was staring back at me. through the page and, it hurt me a lot
and i keep trying to find my self under this sadness but slowly i'm becoming something i’m not something i’m not
writing and keeping in contact with friends and going to sleep at the right time and waking up in the morning fine
laughing and smiling when everythings ok, not letting my fears control me i’m no good in crowds
and the same thoughts every day torturing me coming up from inside me, i just want to sleep
i shake it off
i can’t get up
and it feels like everyone secretly hates me talks to me out of pity and sympathy
and i don’t know why i do this to my self and i’m sorry to all who know me for being so down
and i’m sleepy, lethargic and stupid and heavy, i’m sick of being such a burden why do you keep me around
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12. |
How do you
01:38
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how do you smile when theres nothing to smile about
an we’re on the down and out and we are on the down and out
how do you talk when theres nothing to talk about
to hearts and minds or louts you always try to think aloud
how do you sleep, when tomorrow is just more pain
its always more of the same when you finally wake up again
how do you laugh theres nothing funny about this mess
it always ends in tears, i’m to scared to go on my dear
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13. |
Tell Me I'm Pretty
00:41
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Tell me I'm pretty
Tell me I'm strong
Tell me I'm worth it
Tell me I'm wrong
Tell me I'm alright
and I'll laugh in your face and tell you you're wrong.
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14. |
Useless to you
03:52
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useless to you
you can do so much i cant do
and i can’t even think straight anymore
and i knock everything off the sides
and i can never keep in time
and i smoke way too much
and i drink way too much
but i sleep just fine
and i’m well aware that you’re better than me
i’ve no qualms about it you’re not my enemy
but i cannot help but hate myself
at least twice as much as i love you
and i’m sorry
i have tried
i have failed at least a million times
to match you
and i’ll go
to your stupid shows
and i’ll watch the tallent you have and i don’t
and how much they love you
i wish they loved me
half as much
and i’ll try
to keep in high spirits
buts its hard when i don’t exist
i have nothing to show for it
and i know
i’ll never stop loving you
and i’ll never stop
hating myself
they don’t care
no they don’t care
they don’t even know who i am
so i’ll go to your stupid shows
and watch the talent you have that i don’t.
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15. |
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you’ve heard all my stories they all sound the same
i spend too much time playing video games
and i don’t smile at strangers i know i’m a pain
but i hope that you still love me all the same
and i don’t have much to offer you
my heart and my soul is the best i can do
i still smile at you when i only feel pain
and i hope that you never have to feel this way
oh i’m alright
oh i’ll get by
oh god damn it i’m fine just stop asking
and i roll up a fag every time i’m outside
i blow smoke in your face no matter how hard i try
to turn my head and blow it away
and i write songs about you that end up about me
and i’m not concerned with current events
i’m more concerned about my own head
and i still cry sometimes but not as much
and i’m such a wreck when life is so god
oh i’m alright
oh i’ll get by
oh god damn it i’m fine just stoop asking
i’ve drunk enough and my sorrows won’t drown
i self medicate but they’re still hanging around
and i don’t have to sort myself out
but i hope that you love me anyhow
theres things in my head that i can’t get straight
these memories of you are starting to grate
and i just cannot fight the way i feel
bottling this poison just makes me feel ill
oh i’m alright
oh i’ll get by
oh god damn it i’m falling apart, just stoop asking
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i’m sorry my song made you cry
but you was never gonna laugh
and i just write what i feel.
you where never gonna laugh
i’m sorry i’m down all the time
and i’m sorry that i tell you i’m fine
and you know i’m a terrible liar
sorry i’m down all the time
oh for what its worth
you’re all that i love on this earth
how can i carry the weight of the world
when my own weight breaks my back
you have what i lack my dear
you have what i lack.
i’m sorry that i don’t go outside
i’d rather stay in and hide
and i know the fresh airs too cold
sorry i don’t go outside
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17. |
tar and feathers
01:54
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hold my hand and i’ll
love you for ever
i’m feeling quite down
i’m under the weather
so dry off my clothes
and hand me my dressing gown
please hold me up when i’m old and i’m withered
i’m falling apart will you hand me the glue
my own memory is like tar and like feathers
the only thing holding me up is you
it’s alright from what i can tell.
i’m swimming in heaven not drowning in hell
and it’s alright from where i’m sitting
but you’re the only thing that keeps me from quitting
so hold on tight cause i’m falling so quickly
the screw’s coming lose and i’m falling apart
i’m sad all the time and i’m far too clingy
but you will always have my heart
and i drink too much and i’m rude when i’m hungry
and i don’t wash my clothes - when they smell of smoke
i don’t have a job and i’m no good at nothing
but i’ll find one in time and this will all be a joke
and i’m alright, i know i’ll get better
its raining on me but your my umbrella
you keep me safe from all the bad weather
your the only thing holding me together.
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18. |
avoid all fun
02:59
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so i’ll sit and write a song but i’ve got nothing to say
and i stay out of the sun and only sleep in the day
but you, shine so bright, it hurts my eyes, but i can’t look away
so i’ll dodge the sun and every one but i’ll always stick close to you
and i’l avoid all fun cause it makes me numb, but i’ll always smile at you
and this joy its like nothing else at least nothing that i’ve felt
but it comes, and goes so fast, its a rough hand i’ve been dealt
and it’s gone more often than not, and it leaves me all by myself
so i’ll sit and do little else, it’s not a cure but it helps
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19. |
factory pt 2
04:00
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this factory is crushing my soul and I
Laugh it off, and get back to work
but I can never be what they want me to
but I still graft until it hurts.
This factory will swallow me whole and I will
Get caught in the gears and come out some one else
but I can never be who you want me to
I wil never be your girl
I wake in the dark and reach for someone to hold on to
but there is only ice and steel
and everybody tells me it’s just something I will get used to.
and they know how it feels
and when you left I couldn’t be consoled and nothing
made sense to me and i felt so alone
but i could never be what you want me to
I could never be your girl
I wake in the dark and reach for someone to hold on to
but there is only ice and steel
and everybody tells me it’s just something I will get used to.
and they know how it feels
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20. |
i miss your incense
02:04
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oh god i miss your incense
and when you said you loved me but in past tense
it hurt me so much for gods sake
but you were worth all the heart break
I just wanted to be near you
I just want to be near you
and i smile when i don’t mean it, hoping that some day i will
and i do not get much done, cause I’m always feeling ill
and I can not cry any more but i really miss the thrill
of being yours
and now i only sit alone staring at this screen.
waiting for some one to come and tell me what this all means
and i write up lists to remind myself that there’s still hope for me
but i don’t believe it
not even from my own lips
I don’t believe it.
I just want to be alright.
I just want to be ok
I just want to be safe
from myself.
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21. |
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We both cut out hair and it was laid to rest
and all of these feelings that we can't get off our chests
We'll hide them from the world but write them in our songs
it's hard for me to move on when we both did nothing wrong
I sit alone in empty rooms just thinking to myself
I do not want to move on
I want you and no one else
I want to wake up with you
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22. |
depression shower
01:25
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another day where i might break
I’ll wash my sense away
Another chance to change my out look
But I still cut myself with your crochet hook
another day to clean my room but
I can’t seem to see it through
I’ll waste away and die some day
I’ll smile when the opportunity comes my way
and I’m staring at walls and sitting on my own
but i can’t stand being alone
and I’m missing you more than you’ll ever know
and I just want you to come home.
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i want you to know.
it's nothing personal
i’m just not one to keep up with friends
it’s not just you
it hurts me too
I could not feel more alone than I feel now.
i’ll push you away
or lead you astray
i’ll just bring you down if i let you stay
i’ll cut you loose
with some old excuse
i’d do anything i can to avoid you
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